Dear the Love I Lost,
Some of these words are mine and the others are anonymous quotes from other people I’ve found on the internet. Because the only beauty in complete heartbreak is they are universal, no matter your gender, sexual preference, race, religion, age, or ethnicity, we all know this pain at least once. So thank you, whoever you were for helping me write this letter.
“Two things burn my throat, alcohol and your name. One makes me need the other. Its been months and losing you still cuts me deep, what burns the most? Watching you be okay and strive without me while I lay around wishing you were still here. I have tried everything to fix the pain I even tried replacing you but it doesn’t seem to be that simple. If it was I could hear your name and not have my world completely crumble around me. Its as if I relive us meeting, falling in love, you falling out of love and every other memory in-between, every time your name is said in passing. Maybe you are the love of my life, I just wasn't yours."
"I thought I would be the bigger person, watching you be happy watching you move on, but I am not. I not angry with you I am just sad, maybe even jealous. Maybe thats why I still call, I don’t know why I do that text you when I’m drunk I wish I didn’t I hate looking weak."
"I used to look at you like you were all the stars in the sky, now my world is black. I wake up every morning and for a moment my stars are all still there, then I remember you left and it its just darkness. But I can’t let that show I have to be strong and be brave, but the moment I come home I will sink into my bed and stare into the sky so dark remembering the stars and cry."
"The callus on my hand I got from wearing that ring you gave me has faded, almost like your memory. I still wear your college sweatshirt to bed, I’ve tricked myself into thinking it might still smell like you but come to think of it its been so long since I’ve laid in your arms I’ve forgotten the smell. When I used to think about your kiss I could feel it on my lips, its been so long I no longer can, I can’t even hear you saying I love you anymore. I wish I couldn't remember any of our love so life wouldn’t be so dark."
"I think I might miss you forever, but everyday I wake up and I breathe and I pick up the pieces you left behind and think of you less and less, until one day I wake up and don’t think of you at all, and when you are mentioned you are nothing more than a pleasant memory of the boy I used to love.”
