You know that feeling, when your life is going really well and you think, "It couldn't get any better than this?"
Well, I try to avoid that phrase. I'm quite superstitious and I believe saying phrases like this only bring bad juju. But, about 5 months ago I realized that my life was going in a pretty great direction. If you would've asked me then if I would change anything, I probably would've told you no and that I had everything I wanted.
Well, it's funny how things have a way of finding you when you least expect them.
All of a sudden, things I didn't realize I wanted were being presented to me every single day. These things made me nervous, but I couldn't help but want to dive into them full heartedly. So that's exactly what I did. Without hesitation, I immersed myself in all of these new things and I'm so glad I did. Now, besides being even more happy than I was before (I didn't even think it was possible), I'm more focused, I feel like I have an idea of what I want to be and do in the future, and I'm learning all these new things about myself and those around me.
So, being the cautious person I am, I was worried that maybe this was too good to be true or that there was some sort of catch to it all. Well, nothing is certain, but so far I don't see any catches.
And that's exactly what makes this thing so incredible.
I had no idea that I wanted or needed any of it, but once it was presented to me, I knew I absolutely had to have it. I used to think that things that like only happened on T.V. and that you almost had to plan the unexpected, but I guess this is proof that that is not the case.
I also used to think good things only happened to you when you were down. That maybe they weren't necessarily good things, but they were better than what was presented at hand. This experience of mine has debunked that myth as well, in this particular case at least. I quietly thought that that was as good as it got, that nothing could be better than what I had at that point in time. I'm glad I was wrong.
Something I've taken away from this is not to expect something good to happen when you're down, or really to expect anything at all. I've learned that if you're doing what you want to be doing, and you're creating good around, good will eventually find you too.
That's not to say that you should do good things only because you expect good things in return, I don't think it works that way (not that I have any real knowledge on how karma in the universe works). But I think you genuinely have to not be looking for something for an unexpected positive to happen.
Another thing I've learned from this is to appreciate what you have while you have it.
I think it's easy to get lost in the day to day, mundane routine and forget about all the good things around you. Even when you feel like things couldn't get worse, it's important to remember the things you have that make you happy.
Even something small, like the new mug you got, or the one new shirt you got at the mall, something doesn't have to be big to be a good thing. Learning to appreciate the small things also makes the big things that more noticeable.
When you get the pay raise, land the internship you wanted, or when that boy finally asks you on a real date (!!!), these things become more valuable to you, and because of that, you're probably going to take more care of these things, and potentially set yourself up for more "good, big things".
With all that being said, I hope everyone's "big thing" will happen soon. If you look around and don't see a change in sight, well maybe that means your "thing" is closer than you think.