As much as I don’t admit it to myself sometimes, I deserve the best. I deserve to be someone’s first choice. I deserve someone who will go out of their way to make sure I’m happy. I deserve to be loved in return, the way that I’ve loved others. I should be shown off to everyone. I don’t deserve to be treated like I will never be good enough. I don’t deserve to be someone’s backup plan. I shouldn’t have to be hidden, and not talked about. I don’t deserve to feel empty around the people that claim to care about me. I deserve everything.
You never saw me the way that I saw you. I watched as you walked away from me, without any explanation. All I could do was watch. It was then that I realized it: you could never treat me the way I should have been treated. The goodbyes are always the hardest part for me. I always knew they would come eventually, but most of the time it was completely out of the blue. Goodbye’s can be the worst when they are never said, and you aren’t given any reason for them. I wished you would stay, but I knew that wasn’t what was best for me. I had to let you go, even if it broke me. You had to go find yourself by leaving me behind. I knew it would hurt, the same way it did every time someone would walk away from me, but I knew all I could do now was fix myself once again.
I’ve continuously been treated this way, but not anymore. It’s been during these times when I’ve find myself the most. I now realize how independent I am. I don’t need other people to be complete. I need to love myself enough to be whole and exist on my own. I can’t wait around for someone to make me happy, I have to create my own happiness. I know that people are going to walk in and out of my life, but the ones that are supposed to stay, will stay for good.
Don’t stay in relationships or friendships where you aren’t treated the way you should be. You don’t have to continue these relationships. It is okay to walk away from people that aren’t helping you better yourself. You have to make sure you are growing every single day. If these people are helping work towards that goal, you don’t need them in your life. Become the best version of yourself on your own. If these people come back to you, make sure they only have your best intentions in mind. You deserve everything you’ve ever dreamed of.
I deserve the world, and so do you. We are the only ones that can give that to ourselves right now, and that is okay.
Energetic dance performance under the spotlight.
Taylor Swift in a purple coat, captivating the crowd on stage.
Taylor Swift shines on stage in a sparkling outfit and boots.
Taylor Swift and Phoebe Bridgers sharing a joyful duet on stage.
