People can only be pushed so far before they decide it's time to give up. Whether it's in a romantic relationship or a friendship, there comes a moment when it's very clear what needs to happen. This is that moment.
People say that all relationships are 50/50 but I don't like to look at them that way because I don't want someone only giving me half of what they're capable of. This means that I can always hold you accountable for your actions as you will do for mine. Except I could not hold you accountable for your actions because you were never in the wrong. Finding reasons to blame other people for things that you did wrong is not something I can stand beside.
I have always been there for you when you needed me. I have been quick to pick up my phone and give you a long-winded answer when your boyfriend was fighting with you, when he broke up with you, when you needed advice and when you just needed someone to talk to. Until recently I never realized that you never did the same for me. If I went to you for anything I would either get a late reply or no reply at all, leaving me wondering what I could have possibly done wrong. It took a few times to realize why I was never finding an answer to that question. I was calling you my friend, but you were never there for me.
A characteristic of friendship is being able to go to someone when you're feeling down so they can lift you back up. I have been through some hard times in my life but I've gotten through them. However, I noticed myself feeling down more often when I was around you because you brought so much negativity to the people around you. Your constant poor attitude about other people (see: blaming other people for your actions) and constant complaints about life in general are emotionally draining. My emotions were affected by your negative attitude and that is not healthy. It is hard to be around someone when they have nothing positive to say.
When you are friends with someone it takes effort to continue that friendship, and there is/was no effort on your side. You are selfish in ways that only describe what a bad friend is. You were never there for me when I needed you and if I fit into your schedule it was only because it was convenient for you. You were very quick to cancel plans with me if the other person was more significant. I was always there for you but you continued to shrug me off and push me away when all I did was try and care for you, only to receive complaints that no one cared about you.
I have given you chance after chance to see if you could realize what you've done wrong but it has never happened. I can't be in a one-sided friendship any longer, so here is where we go our opposite ways. For me, I know I will be fine because I came to terms with this a while ago. At first it really sucked because I realized I was losing a friend, but then I realized the negatives outweigh the positives. But for you I worry because I don't think you will ever change.
I will always be grateful for the positive times we shared together, as there were many. I am always grateful for any friendship that crosses my path because it teaches me a lesson. If you do ever realize what you've done wrong I will be here to listen to your apology, but I won't hold my breath. I genuinely do wish you all the best, as I do think you deserve it.
Thank you for all that you taught me.
