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LIVING WITH ANXIETY

You are held captive inside your own mind

Nov 07, 2016

Anxiety. It’s a part of your 7am wake up call. It’s an unwanted friend. It’s your own worst enemy living inside of you. Each and every day it is a part of you, it has become you. There is no escaping. You are a prisoner trapped inside of your own body, drowning in your own negative thoughts and worries about everyday activities. This is what it feels like to live with anxiety.

Anxiety. It isn’t something most people understand. If you try to explain your thoughts and feelings to someone, you are often glared at with faces of confusion as well as looks of grimace upon their faces. No one understands you and you are left with more worry once again. It isn’t a physical illness that someone can see it is an illness that is inside of you. One that is hard to cure. Sure you can pop some medication every day but nothing really cures you. You are left hopeless some days, dreading getting out of bed, in fear that your thoughts will once again ruin your day. Anxiety has the potential to ruin relationships. Your family and friends are sometimes the cause of your anxiety, leaving them to run to the fences thinking they did something wrong, when in reality, they probably did nothing wrong. It is a mental illness that takes over your life.

Anxiety. In recent months it has taken over my life in more ways than imaginable. It has caused hurt to those around me, as well as days full of worry because loved ones are worrying about whether I can make it through the day. Days filled with worry about whether or not I will be able to overcome this. It has not only impacted me, but my immediate family. It has taken time out of my day due to attacks over the smallest of things. It has caused me to miss out on being a college student. It has taken time from me that I will never ever get back.

Anxiety. It is now time for this illness to step aside, because it is now time to become me again. It is time to spread my wings and become independent, taking back my life. Breaking out of the trap my own mind has set me in. It is time for me to be free. It is time to put a positive attitude as my #1 priority. It is time for me to live again! It is time for me to go back and rekindle those friendships that I have lost out on. It is time for me to be me!

Anxiety. I hate to say this, but anxiety you will not be missed. You no longer have me held captive. You have been defeated and I could not happier!

I am me again and I am breaking free of anxiety.

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No one best represents the struggle like our favorite 90s squad.

1. When course schedules are released and you have a conflict between two required classes.

2. When there is only one section of a popular course.

3. Receiving the 18,000 emails reminding you to register ASAP.

4. When you need to see an advisor, but they are too busy/unresponsive.

5. Trying not to dress like a bum for your appointments with your advisors/department heads.

6. When you have a perfectly planned out schedule, and one class ruins it.

7. Carefully moving things around to accommodate a different class/section.

8. Waking up at 6:00 a.m. for your enrollment time.

9. Concocting a new schedule at your enrollment time after your original plan gets changed.

10. Getting into a class and filling the last available seat.

11. When all of your classes finally go through.

12. Realizing that you forgot a class that was a pre-requisite for everything else.

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1. When you have to provide an "interesting fact" for your first day ice-breaker.

2. When your professor is babbling on and on in his lecture.

3. When you edit your friend's paper and they get an A.

4. When it's 2 AM and you remember you have a test tomorrow.

5. When you finish taking the test and you're pretty sure you failed...

6. ...but then you get the test back and somehow passed.

7. When you've been up for 12 hours straight writing a paper.

8. And then you manage to stay awake in class the next day.

9. When you have to butter up your professor for an extra credit opportunity.

10. When you're assigned a group project.

11. And your group-mates are trying to chat about life instead of the assignment.

12. When it's your last class of the day and you're about to go home.

13. But then you remember rent is due tonight and the anger comes back.

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