I was nineteen when my world changed. I thought I was going to go to college for all four years, get my degree, find the love of my life and then have beautiful babies. My freshman year of college proved that when you make your own plans, God certainly laughs and puts his spin on it. He decided that at age nineteen it was time to be handed the greatest responsibility. He decided that I would become a young, single mom. I have never regretted His choice either.
When a young girl becomes a mom, in my opinion, their world will ultimately change. It's by far the scariest and most rewarding job that you can be given. Whether you chose to become a mother or it was a complete accident, like mine; It will always be a 24/7 job that never ceases to teach you something new. Once you think you have grasped motherhood, you actually have not. The hardest part? Being a mom in your twenties and feeling like you are not giving your all to your child.
I work a part time retail job, I am about to go back to school and I am a full time mom. It's like a circus 24/7. I am a single mom. A single, young mom. It is the most difficult job in the world. There are sleepless nights, early mornings and constant days. Sometimes I feel like I have not slept in four weeks. It is all rewarding though. I look at my son, and I have never loved anyone more than I have loved him. I have never felt as much sorrow as being away from him. Even though at times I wonder what it would be like if I never got pregnant, I would never take back my son. He is my world, my best friend. The smile he gives me when I wake him up, the kisses he makes sure I have before he leaves in the morning, and the hugs he gives me when he knows I am upset; I know that I did not mess up, I have been given a challenge, and I will achieve success.
When you become a mother at a young age it is not a death sentence, it's not the end. You are given a challenge because you, yourself, are strong enough for. A woman's love for their child is endless. Everyday I see my son grow and become more and more of the man he should be. I cannot believe I created that. The job of being a mother is to help your child grow and become an amazing person. Yes, at times we will get to the edge and want to scream, but we will never give up. Even though we are young. We are balancing a job, school and being a mom, Whether you are single or you have help. Your child will love you and thank you. Everyday that a young mom doubts their strength as a mother remember that this job is the hardest, most rewarding job. Kiss your babies, and be the strong woman you are.