ONE QUESTION

After the dusk and dawn has came and gone

the dust settles and things seem all wrong,

There is only one question raging through my brain,

It stays there constantly intensifying my pain,

Not a day goes by when it doesn’t cross my thoughts,

The emptiness I cary everywhere that I go,

The loss of my parent, my best friend, my world,

“Why did she give me life, if she knew she could die?”

It took me having my own child to find the reasons why,

No way will I ever find a love so strong

In her eyes I am mommy and I can do no wrong,

A bond unbreakable from the womb,

I understand the strength it took to go through life as a mom overcoming all the complications of sickle cell,

Creating beautiful memories for me, giving me life lessons to put in my bag,

So many days and nights wishing that I had you back,

That one question I use to ask all the time now makes more sense,

Instead I thank God for blessing me with her while he did

I fight hard everyday to show my daughter she deserves the love I have to give,

I will teach her to be the woman and mother I had

I made a promise I never intend to break

Making my mom proud and never letting her my daughter or myself down.

-Shabreon Howard 11/2/16