Dear pappou, I wonder what you are thinking of me now

Up in heaven almost three years

Up in heaven looking down on your only granddaughter

Dear pappou,

How often do you watch over me?

When I get those chills down my back

When I feel the wind pull my screen door as I am going into my house, I imagine you standing behind me

When I cry out loud when I am sad, do you hear me?

You must hear me

You must hear that I have been doing well in school

Trying to work to make you proud of me

Trying to get a college degree isn’t easy, pappou

Trying to balance life without you isn’t easy pappou

Trying to deal with every day stresses without hearing you laugh sometimes isn’t easy

Remembering that my stubborn personality must have come from you

But with that personality comes the big heart that we both have for others

Knowing that I miss you every day isn’t easy for me pappou

But I know you are always cheering me on from up in heaven

Cheering me and my family on

I know you must be proud of me

I know you must be proud of everyone

Because when you were alive you gave me so much

You made other people’s lives better

And now that you are gone and since you’ve been gone I still feel you watching me

And for that, I am grateful and I hope you know I miss you and love you.