You didn't care about my feelings, hell you didn't care about me at all.

You only cared about what you could take from me, and you took more than you deserved.

You let me fall hopelessly head over heals for you. You led me to believe that my crush was a valid feeling.

You didn't just hurt my feelings, you broke off a piece of my soul. You did more than make me feel like an idiot, you changed my entire perspective on how I view myself. This girl has healing to do, yet she can't find a way up.

I can't express my distaste for you. You make me sick. When I see you out it hurts me down to my core. I can't help but think, "what am I doing wrong?"

In reality I shouldn't just blame myself for what happened. You deserve some of the blame. You deserve to know how you made me feel.

As I write this I know I sound a bit petty. I am fully aware of how selfish this is going to sound, but it's time I stop solely blaming me.

I can't move on and help myself without addressing the issues head on. It's not fair you get to carry on day in and out with a smile on your face while I sit home and cry.

It's not fair that you continue on like nothing ever happened. You smile at me still in passing. You try to express how much you miss me, yet I know it's all a facade.

You tore me down piece by piece. You stole my beauty. I no longer see a pretty woman with confidence. All that is left is the insecure girl. The girl who looks in the mirror and points at her flaws. Now I find my own facial features ugly.

Its not just my appearance I pick at now. I break down all of my emotions. I overthink every thing I say.

"Was that not funny enough?"

"Did I talk too much?"

"What is wrong with me?"

There isn't a day that goes by that I'm not asking myself that last question. I don't see things as "maybe they aren't the right one", or "maybe he's just not interested". I find myself asking what is wrong with ME. I blame every failed relationship on myself. That's a heavy burden to hold when you feel all alone.

I hope you treat the one you love better. I hope you embrace her for the human that she is. I hope you never take her for granted. I hope you unconditionally love her.

I say this in hopes that no woman has to ever deal with what I have. I never want another soul to be so torn by the way you treated me. I want nothing more than happiness for you and your future. I say the things above to help me heal. I say them because without that on my chest I am able to breathe again. Now I can begin my journey to becoming the one I once was. Happy. Confident. Loving