You've been my roll dawg since our sandbox days.
When I was four years old, you were two years old, playing in the sandbox with me under my raggedy playscape in my backyard.
You were the annoying neighbor kid across the street I couldn't stand, because you threw sand in my face. I cried uncontrollably as I stumbled blindly trying to locate the back door of my house. I pleaded with my mom to send you back home, so your big brother came to walk you across the street.
I told myself I would never be your friend because you were an evil little monster and I know you threw sand in my face on purpose. Somehow, you became like a sister to me.
As we grew older together we were inseparable. Wherever you went, I was there beside you. Remember all those late night conversations about nothing? Remember being the only exception to our punishments? We couldn't talk on the phone for a month, but some how we finessed our parents to allow us to see each other.
We experienced everything together. From kissing boys to losing our virginity. We use to laugh and joke about how ugly our kids would be, because we always gossiped about other people. We came to terms that it would be karma if our kids turned out ugly, but we were both full it. With our looks if our kids came out ugly we would blame the father.
You were my rock and the only constant thing I knew in my life.
We planned our entire life together how we would grow old together sitting on the porch gossiping about the young neighbor woman with the booty shorts. We were going to plan one another's wedding and be each other's bridesmaid.
You were going to be the cool crazy aunt my kids loved to hangout with.
As we starting getting older we started drifting apart. No beef, no problems, just on a different page.
From time to time I hit you up to check up on you. You tell me you're doing fine, which is to be expected. I guess in the back of my mind I'm just hoping the answer will change and you’ll say you need me like before, but you don't and I've come to terms with that.
I will always love you no matter what.
No matter the distance, the journey or the circumstance you entered my life and left an imprint on my heart. They say some people enter your life for a reason and I believe you were here to show me what it meant to have a friend, a sister, a partner and crime.
Although we don't talk as much anymore I'm still rooting for you. I know how strong you are and you can handle anything thrown your way, so I don't worry as much.
Just know no matter how many years, months, or weeks from now I will always be one call away.
I guess some things never change and that's the love I have for my little sister.
