Recently my Bible study group has been focusing on a book called A Man Worth Waiting For. It has been an amazing and eye opening book. The book isn't aimed at going out searching for your soulmate or telling you how to go about looking for them. The book focuses on teaching readers how to know and notice the differences between a Boaz and a modern day Bozo. This book has made me look at things differently and I have a few words for my one day Boaz.

Dear Boaz,

For starters, I apologize. I have not been a woman worth waiting for. I have certainly been a work in progress. I apologize that I have continuously settled for Bozos and mistaken them for the greatness that you are. I know that if it is in his plan, God will lead me to you when the time is right. I apologize that I completely lost faith in you. After Bozo and Bozo I was lost and unbelievably broken. I thought that if there ever was a guy like you set aside for me that I had screwed up the plan and you were lon gone.

My next point is thank you. Thank you for waiting around for me. I've heard of the incredible qualities you possess and they are definitely worth waiting for. I am working on my patience but just like the rest of me it is a process. I promise to never lose faith in you or our wonderful creator again. I know he has worked so hard on both of us and needs us to put in the same work in return.

Your qualities are amazing and honestly jaw dropping. The stories I hear about you seem unworldly. A man that not only shares in my relationship with Christ but pushes me to do better and pushed me to continually build my faith stronger. You are a man that would give anything and everything for his woman and I am working towards being the same You have a relationship with the Lord that I admire with a full and abundant heart.

Your timing. From the stories I've heard you have impeccable timing. You seem almost as if you pop out of nowhere in the most meaningful time possible. I'm sure a large part of this is that just like a woman worth waiting for you aren't searching for your other half. You are bettering yourself and letting God do his work in his time. Not on your clock.

Lastly, if you are not mine. I spent all this time telling you how much I couldn't wait for you and how amazing you are when in reality you may not be in God's plan for me. There is a completely valid chance that God's plan is for me to stay eternally single. 2 months ago if you had told me this I probably would have lost myself. I wouldn't know how to understand this horrible news. Today I stand completely willing to accept that if it is in His plans. So Boaz if you are not mine I can not wait to see the woman you find and how happy you make her.