This is a very small but realistic conversation that I imagine happens between my broken heart (H) who is very hopeful but can't can't seem to take the truth and my insensitive mind (M) who is very wise and denies everything.
M: "You know, it's getting really annoying with you constantly calling out his name. I can't think anymore because all I can hear is you. He's not going to hear you nor is he going to come back. Why haven't you accepted that yet?"
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H: "Why do you always have to be a downer? He is going to come back, he loves us."
M: "If he loved us, he'd be here. If he loved us, he'd accept everything we are and what we have to offer. If he loved us, he'd show us. But he's never here and you need to realize that."
H: "He does love us, I know he does."
M: "Do you honestly think that his heart calls out your name? You think he aches for you? You really believe that he sits and thinks about us? You're so pathetic. You call out his name everyday hoping that he'll come and he never does. You beat for only him while his heart beats for so many others; none of which are you. He doesn't think of us, I don't think he ever even did."
H: "How can you say that? He did so much for us. He loves us, he just has a bad way of showing it. Even if he doesn't love us, I love him."
M: "You're never going to get it are you? He already broke you. You're far from being patched up and you're barely holding on. Your slow beats are still going only because you somehow still have hope that he'll come back for you. He's gone. He never cared. He may have ripped you to shreds but I will not allow myself to be blinded."
H: "He had to have loved us at some point. How could he say all those things? How could his heart stop calling out for me?"
M: "His heart never called out for you. His heart was blinded from the lies that his own mind told him. He never loved us. He knew how beautiful and innocent you were; he knew how easily you'd beat for him. He knew that you were too far gone. You need to patch yourself up and grow strong. Believe me, when someone's heart genuinely calls out for you, you'll know it."
Everyone always tells you to follow your heart; that your mind always comes second when you make decisions because your heart will guide you and tell you what to do. But our hearts are so genuine and fragile that once they're set on something, they will never stop until they get it. Your mind can guide you. If you're ever having doubts, listen to them because even though your heart knows what it wants, it doesn't men it's what's right for you.
