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Confessions of a Gay Man

What's inside my head?

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Confessions of a Gay Man
Derek Smith

I know. The title is so unappealing. However, after talking to people. I feel like I personally need to get some things off my chest. Below is a list of all the things I need to confess.

  • I hate hate hate hate hate the fact that I can be fired because of my sexuality.
  • I feel like myself and anyone who is like me is not accepted in my hometown. It is hard to call it home, when you feel pushed out.
  • College has given me the strength to stand up for what I believe in.
  • I have a lot of fake friends. Not people who are fake. People I allow to believe we are friends. However, I can’t stand them.
  • My brain is theatrical. I imagine myself as characters and wish I was them such as, Regina (Evil Queen), Blaine Anderson, Beyoncé, and Christina Aguilera.
  • I don’t have many male role models. I look up to strong independent women because I still have male trust issues.
  • I love villains so much more than good guys.
  • I hate the fact that I can’t wear what I want without backlash.
  • I wish I could be shown that love really does exist. I’m starting to believe it’s a sham.
  • I hate I can’t sing the songs that I love to listen to because I am a bass and they are all Soprano 1 or 2.
  • I wish I could be in more musicals that I liked like Rocky Horror Picture Show,
  • I wish more people like Joan Rivers existed, it made the world understand how awful and stupid it was.
  • I wish we could all take our religions and races and just get over ourselves and move on. We are all human.
  • I wish college was free. Knowledge shouldn’t cost so much.
  • I wish the music field was more appreciated.
  • I wish Donald Trump would concede.
  • I hate that the arts are under-appreciated by the general public in public schools.
  • I hate people who push their beliefs on others.
  • I hate that people feel the need to kill people to “fix” their causes. Why can’t we just be civil and diplomatic.
  • I hate that people are so petty that Congress can’t even appoint a new justice.
  • I hate how Mike Pence has basically stripped the power from Glinda Ritz because he knows she is right.
  • One Direction sounds better broken up.
  • Beyoncé is my spirit animal.
  • My attitude is an outward façade. I care about things more than I put off.
  • I hate unresolved conflict.
  • I love murder mysteries because I like to learn about the killers and their thinking.
  • Once Upon A Time is my favorite show, just because it makes you feel like you could live there.
  • My male crush is Colton Haynes. I mean look at him. If we met, I'd collapse.
  • I have thought about drag. I just like the outrageous outfits.
  • I love old Disney movies.
  • Melissa McCarthy is bae.
  • I have a sharp tongue like Madea.
  • I have a fear of driving. More like a fear of endangering others.
  • I feel like I am under-appreciated a lot.
  • Ignorant Rednecks annoy me to no end. “Do you all sell deer meat?” Do you have a brain you dumb, white trash, single brain celled baboon?
  • I don’t do well with “Grace in the face of Ignorance”.
  • I wish the world was more colorful. Grey is boring and gross.
  • Fast food workers are super under-appreciated.
  • I hate drugs, alcohol, super out of control parties, or any other destructive decision you can think of.
  • #ImWithHer til the end.
  • I considered being a dancer at Connections before.
  • I’ve been silent during discussions that I know if I talked would have upset some people.
  • Guys are so stupid. I hate dating at my age. It never works.
  • I wish my close friends would never leave me. They are so special to me.
  • Socks and Sandals = Trash. FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO WEAR!
  • Mykul Jay Valentine was my first male performer crush.
  • Nicole Jackson Valentino will forever be my first drag friend. My dancing diva! <3 Then Tori Sass ;)
  • Jordin Sparks’ “Battlefield” is my guilty pleasure aside from “Crazy in Love”.
  • I feel like my fraternity was wrongfully shut down.
  • I want to play Frank N. Furter in Rocky Horror!
  • I hate playing Piano. Love listening to it, love singing with it, hate playing it.
  • I’m a Democratic Socialist, who also likes the idea of communism.
  • I love being the “bad countries” during Model UN. I love raining of people’s parades.
  • I wanted to be a cheerleader when I was younger.
  • I hate the color yellow on anybody. It looks gross. Wear orange or purple instead.
  • Never watched Harry Potter all the way through. I fall asleep. Same with Lord of the Rings. #Bored
  • I wish more people like Ellen DeGeneres existed. Be kind to one another.
  • Twilight was stupid. We all know a human would be dead if they messed with a werewolf or vampire. Stop living out a fantasy Stephanie Myers.
  • Snoop Dog reminds me of a grandpa on drugs.
  • Lady Gaga is better than Madonna.
  • Jane Lynch as Sue told us exactly what we were thinking, but were too afraid to say.
  • Clingy and protective is attractive in a person.
  • The fact I don’t have an actual bed at home kind of depresses me.
  • “The Devil Wears Prada” was my dream scenario when I was a kid. Own a fashion company, be famous, have assistants, etc.
  • President Obama is cooler than people give him credit for.
  • I feel like there are more people that let me down every day than keep their word.
  • I feel like keeping a child’s love is more than just showing up once every 27th event.
  • If people really cared about family, we would all be together more than just 3 holidays.
  • Money and property does not make you more important to a family than anyone else. It makes you a jerk if you flaunt it and oppress others from the same.
  • I had a crush on my old young guard instructor.
  • I hate being told what to read. I understand and learn more when I read freely and read about what I want to read about.
  • Meditation has done wonders for me.
  • I feel like if you care about something truly, you will continuously go back for it.
  • I feel like the ego far outweighs the talent of some athletes I know.
  • I will gladly smile to your face and internally rip your heart out, if I truly don’t like you.
  • I feel like my kindness and willingness to help is taken advantage of.
  • I feel like there are people meant to speak who don’t and people who speak who shouldn’t.
  • I feel like hard work does not always pay off.
  • I have learned not to get too attached to anything because it can leave just as fast as you found it.
  • I feel like people sometimes place too high of goals on others.
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