Although one of my greatest strengths is my ability to be self-aware, I’ve discovered it can also be a weakness. On one hand, I am able to look at every possible angle, every point of view (even one’s I don’t always necessarily agree with), which in turn causes me to overthink. The truth is that everybody overthinks sometimes, but some (myself included) do way more than others.
Second Guessing
I’m the type of person that is the most indecisive/decisive person you probably know. I will look at every possible scenario with all of their possible outcomes. I will go back and forth, back and forth, back and forth until I finally decide. Once I’ve decided what I am going to do, I will 100% stick with my decision. Although being a fairly confident person, that doesn’t mean I don’t second guess. That is when the deadly “What If's” come into play.
The “What If's”
These are the things in life that eat your brain away. What if I had gone to a different college? What if I hadn’t ever met this person? What if I hadn’t ordered Chinese for the second week in a row? Everyone has their own “what if's” and they are endless. Sadly, replaying possible scenarios in my head does not change anything, except make it impossible to sleep.
Sleepless Nights
Fortunately, I do not have insomnia, but there are nights where no matter how hard I try, I just cannot shut my brain off.
Overthink My Overthinking
Sometimes I overthink so much I begin to overthink my overthinking. Which, by the way, is even weirder because I’m overthinking about “thinking” which leads me to question how my brain even works and the meaning of life, and that causes my brain to hurt because no one really even knows the answer.
Some days I overthink more than others. With a simple google search, you’ll find thousands and thousands of articles, pictures, and quotes that will pop up about overthinking. Although it’s nice to know overthinking is something everybody experiences, it doesn’t make the overthinking any less troublesome. I’ve even overthought about writing this article, but here it is.
