College has taught me so much. Not necessarily academic stuff but life stuff. I've learned more about life in college than I have the 18 years before. I guess that's somewhat the point of it. According to this study, I'm not the only one. The study states that the students (183 of them) believed college helped them feel prepared for life post-graduation but they had different feelings about entering the workforce and being financially independent.
Of course, there's some things I still have yet to learn and some things I refuse to believe or acknowledge. So here are my confessions of a soon-to-be college senior:
1. I'll still skip classes.
I may be in my last year of classes which are, for the most part, degree-related, but it's a thing. You wake up one day and decide to skip because it's too cold or too hot. Reading the syllabus as soon as possible is the key to not failing the class due to missing class.
2. I'm sad.
College is literally the best time of my life. I'm not sure if my life can get any better. I certainly hope so but for this last year, I'm going to be a big mess of excitement and depression.
3. I don't party every weekend.
Sure going out to the Strip is fun every now and then but every night or every weekend? No, thank you. I'd rather have a glass of wine while bingeing scary movies with my BFF instead of going out and get buzzed on expensive drinks around creepy strangers in dark places.
4. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do.
I don't know if I'm going to have a job after I graduate. I hope so. My goal is to work in OKC or Tulsa and then move on to Dallas and then, eventually, Seattle. I don't want to get stuck in my little town of Muskogee, Oklahoma. I don't want to be stuck with a receptionist job with no way up.
5. I don't want to leave my friends.
But there are some I do want to leave. That sounds bad but it's true. Everyone has that one friend (or friends) that they could definitely live without. Everyone also has those people that they couldn't dream of being without for a week. The pain of leaving someone you've relied on for the past 4+ years is excruciating.
6. I don't want to join the "real world."
From what actual adults have told me, the real world is full of people that want all of your stuff and to leave you in the dirt. I don't want to believe that. Sure, there are people who will take any opportunity to get where they want but I also believe there will be someone there to help pick you back up.
7. I don't know what to do besides school.
I've been going to school for decades. OK, one decade and some change. Going to school is all I know how to do. I've been living for holiday breaks, you don't get a spring break at a real job.