02.17.2017

They always told me that college would be "the best four years of my life." But my second year of college is almost over, and I can't confirm that to be true. I feel like most of my college experience has been watching the ones around me having the best years of their life, while I create a life on social media convincing others and even myself that everything is just fine. Maybe that's why I've always been so big on taking pictures. With pictures, you can create an image to capture a moment exactly how you want to remember it, even when that moment is gone. I always wonder if others are also in the same boat and if people aren't truly as happy as they portray themselves to be.

Lately, I've been just been trying to get through my days. School days are easier but tiring, I guess it's easier because I can distract myself with my obligations, even if those obligations have no real significance to me.They're all thing of this world. I can't say all days are bad, I'd be a liar to say that. There are some real good days, but most of my days a spent alone and that weight me down the most. Those who never have never dealt with these kinds of thing will tell me that it doesn't matter because I have God. But God's up there and I'm over here. Although I know he'll never leave me or forsake, it doesn't change the everyday real feeling that I have. In the beginning God mad man, and say that he was alone so he made him a companion. God knew it wasn't good for man to be alone. I don't even want a significant other. I just want someone, anyone one in the same world as me. I feel like either no one cares, or there's no one I can truly relate to. What's life if you can't share the laughter or the tears with the ones around you.