This time, not even a year ago,

I had a vision of being dead. I loved it.

I thought that's what I wanted.

I snapchatted a friend who always helped me realize I didn't want that. He responded and that's when I realized he wasn't the answer I needed.

I texted another and he told me some high spirited things. I couldn't keep the tears from rolling off my face.

I just had a vision of Christmas time next year being a hairstylist, doing someone's wedding and getting to be part of their big day.

Even though it doesn't seem like a massive part, it is.

Looking forward to that to see if it comes true is what really is keeping me here.

Every day is a new adventure, there are a million cliches I can blurt out in the span of a second, but some of them actually make sense.

When you get to a certain point in your life, think of one of the cliches, say it to yourself, and you might understand it in a new light as you've never seen before.

One day it'll just hit you, you'll think of advice to give and that cliche pops in, and it just fits.

You'll understand it when you get there, and if you don't understand it yet, you're not there.