'Chronicles of an Afrogeek' is a series of sideline stories about young black men, their environments, and their searches for purpose.

Anthony, 23 years old, college student.

I've always lived a "perfect" life. Above average grades, top of the class and all. I've always been a "good boy", never misbehaving and always acting right. Long story short, I've always been faultless and this since kindergarten.

However, that whole time, I spent trying to be a goody two-shoes, and actually being a goody two-shoes. I was never quite happy. I always felt closed off, in a bubble. I never felt as though I was really living, you know. I would watch other kids my age and always felt alien to their ways, because I had no idea what it was like outside of this bubble of mine.

Today, I am 23 years old and I feel as though I have watched the past 20 years pass right by me. Today, I feel as though I've missed out on opportunities essential to my growth. Today, I feel like a waste. Today, also, I plan on changing that.

So tonight, I am out. I am out to liberate myself. I am out to discover the unexperienced. I am out to give vent to my emotions. I am out to see what it is like to let one's heart feel and react accordingly. I am out to misbehave. I am out to feel the consequences of making the wrong choices. Tonight I am out, for the first time in my life, in more ways than one.

I don't know what or how I will feel about this tomorrow. Maybe I will reprimand myself for this decision. Maybe nothing will happen and I'll just remain the same: Anthony, the 23 year old college student with great manners. But tonight, I am out, even if it's only for a night.