So, something has happened in my life that many of you may or may not know about. Some of you I have had a long conversation with, some of you may be surprised, or you may not even care that much about it. In my heart, telling everyone about this transition that I am going through is, in a way, needed. I try not to make a big deal about things that go on in my life, but I also want everyone to be in the loop as to what is going on in my life at this moment.
Yesterday, January 25th, I packed everything up and left Oklahoma Baptist University. It was hard and I don't know if I have cried as much as I have in the past 24 hours. Why did I leave, you ask? God is the reason for this season in my life. During the winter break, I was fighting this urge to take the semester off. I was telling myself, "I have a nursing degree to attain. I don't have time and money to take off from school." I also thought I was just going through a slump, getting comfortable laying on the couch and watching Criminal Minds on Netflix all day. I needed to go back so I could have some stuff to do. I have a church family in Shawnee that I care immensely about and two twin boys that I always enjoy picking up from school and take care of until their mom or dad get home. I have friends there that I could never leave. We need each other. It would be insane for me to leave, right? Well, being at OBU for two days I was feeling so miserable. Was it the people there? Professors? Was it the campus as a whole? Was class too hard? None of these things are true. My GPA was actually at its best and I was ready to take on nursing classes and CIV. Everything was so perfect, so why was I so sad and miserable? There's only one answer: This is not where I am supposed to be. I'm not being called into the nursing profession anymore, and since I don't have any gen eds to take, I don't have the money to continue to go to school and aimlessly take random classes that may or may not help me in the future - especially when all my classes were nursing classes (except CIV, of course).
Of course, I wouldn't have come to OBU if the Lord wasn't leading me there in the first place. God gave me an opportunity to go to a great college under many scholarships including cheer. They have one of the best nursing programs and is voted the best university for many reasons. It's no question that I was being called there before.
Now, God is closing the door of OBU and is calling me to my true home in Durant. What am I going to do here? I have no idea! I may get a job. But other than that, I don't have a clue as to what I am doing. Nursing isn't an option right now for me anymore and all I can say about myself is that I am lost and confused. BUT, the Lord is guiding me and I am trusting in the path that He is leading me. I am taking a leap of faith in coming home. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't afraid of what's to come. I'm honestly so afraid of becoming stagnant. Staying here and just getting comfortable. The Christian life isn't about becoming comfortable and staying where you are - it's stepping out of your comfort zone, being bold, and I think that's what I will have to do in this transition of my life if I want to live my life for Christ! Prayers are appreciated and there is so much love and prayer coming from me as well.
God bless,
- Brooke Podany
"Let us hold on to the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.And let us be concerned about one another in order to promote love and good works, not staying away from our worship meetings, as come habitually do, but encourage each other, and all the more as you see the day drawing near." Hebrews 10:23-25
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus." Philipians 4:19
