Yes, I have had my fair share of tragedy in my life. Some may say I've had more than my fair share. Not many people know much about my full story. Actually, no one outside of my family has heard it all, but that isn't the point of this post.

I have never in my life been so content than I am right now. I have a job I can truly say I love. Not that there isn't people or things I get aggravated with, but at the end of the day I am so happy there. I make very good money. I have met some really beautiful people. Whether they are just in my life as a lesson or will actually stay in my life for the rest of it. I am excellent at what I do, and I am able to learn new things every day. The only problem is I know I don't want to do this for the rest of my life. I don't think I'd actually physically be able to do it that long anyway.

I used to have all these dreams and careers I wanted to do. Most of them became a bust because I'm unable to successfully go to school. I'm too much of a "hands-on" learner to go to college. I found that out after three years of on and off attempts and fourteen thousand dollars later. My interview with NYU I completely blew because of how nervous I was. The point being is I am so content with where I am now that I don't know what I want out of my future.

I know I want to get myself out of the debt I am in. I want to be a mama one day. I want to fall in love and have that love reciprocated, but for a career, I don't have the first clue about what I want to do. I love traveling, but who doesn't? I've tried to get a job as a flight attendant, but I was so nervous during that interview too.

It is safe to say I am a mess.