can you blame me
If all the promises you once made
Recommended for you
Were merely a facade
the more we progressed, the more I looked
For the man you once were.
the late nights , the times where you made me feel inexistent
don’t fucking ever tell other people otherwise
Making me out to be the bad guy
When you will never take accountability
I thought it was my fault for so long
I thought the man you once were disappeared because of me.
but that is so far from the truth
That man you once was ,
Will never be who you are
You read so far into my words,
My identity, my essence
You knew what I wanted in a man
And became the version that I’ve always wanted,
only for it to just be slammed back
In my face because you couldn’t keep the act up
I wanted the you in the beginning to come back
so badly that I stopped finding the beauty in myself
I believed all the things you said to me ; your words were like gospel to me.
since I truly did feel safe with you.
And thought that you would always be there for me.
but after showing my demons & vulnerabilities since I trusted you
not only were you shocked but you also viewed me as a burden
even though I was there through all your bullshit
I never put them against you; I just wanted you to hold my hand and love me like the way you did before
Can you blame me
If after all this time
I won’t be able to open my heart back up again
and that as quickly as you made me believe in love,
I stopped believing in it again.
