"He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds." Psalm 147:3
So you're a screw-up. You've done things you regret. You continue to make decisions that hurt you and others whether they are intentional or not. You're broken. And you're not alone.
If we were perfect, we wouldn't need a savior.
But we aren't perfect, and we need one now more than ever. Admit it, life gets way too hard to bear. Some things are just too heavy to handle by ourselves. In these moments, (and every other moment, really) we need someone to help us, to save us from ourselves.
Luckily, this isn't the end. There is a God who cares, who loves, and who provides. As stated above, Psalm 147:3 says that he heals the brokenhearted and he bandages their wounds.
Last year was a very dark and depressing time for myself and my family. It seemed as though my anxiety was more prevalent than ever before. I lost my faith, my self-worth, I was distant. I put on a brave face and a lot of people I was close with had no idea what was going on until I opened up. Eventually, it got way too heavy to bear. And then God revealed Matthew 11:28-30 to me.
"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
I'm so thankful to have met such kind, empathetic people after God's own heart. They prayed for me when I couldn't pray for myself. My family also prayed extensively for me, and I believe it was only by divine intervention I was set free from the brokenness that befell upon me.
In that moment I re-accepted Him back as my Savior. Even though He never once left me. So bring your brokenness to the cross. Fall on your knees and give it all up to Him. You have so much life to live, so much of your story still needs to be written. Allow God to work in and through you. Allow him to write your story. He has your best interest at heart. And his stories are never boring.
God gave you the desires of your heart for a reason, and He won't neglect those.
He uses your gifts, talents, and abilities for His glory. And when you do those things for Him, it radiates off of you and other people will begin noticing that you're "different". God redeems all. No experience, problem, or difficulty is too big, too small, too petty, or too unique. So sure, you're broken into a million pieces. But take heart because He has overcome the world (John 16:33).