The last thing you said to me before we left school for the summer was "I hope you have a good summer. I'll talk to you soon, I promise." Now summer is almost over and I have not heard one word from you. I'm not sure what I was expecting or why I even thought you would keep this promise. You have a really bad habit of not keeping any of your promises to me.
I should have known not to get my hopes up. That was the first time we had spoken to each other since the day you told me that we couldn't be friends, I was only hurting you more and more, and that we could never repair our friendship. Then you deleted me from everything in your life. (Yes, this is the same person from my "To The Boy I Had To Say Goodbye To" article. I am fully aware of how stupid I am but can you blame me? ... Probably…you should…anyway!)
I know you. I know you better than almost anyone and that is because you have shown me the real you. When we used to hang out you would have no problem telling me how you really feel or what is really on your mind. You would be so open and honest with me. We cried together, more than once! Then, when someone else would walk in the room or when we were hanging out with other people you would shut down. You would sink back into your shell and go along with whatever is being said in the group. I have told you this before and we have talked about it. You have so many different sides to you, so many different personalities almost.
I think that is why you have a hard time keeping promises. You have a hard time keeping track of which side of yourself that you have shown someone. Your go to defense is to just bail out so you don't risk showing the real you to the wrong person. But you didn't have to do that with me. You didn't have to bail out and shut down because I have already seen you for you, many times.
So it's not just me who you don't keep promises too. You do it to the most important people in your life. Well, you say they are the most important people. You do it to people who you probably shouldn't have. But they are not very angry about it. That says a lot about them. That says they are okay with your broken promises and straying away. I mean, they were mad when they first found out about you breaking promises, but you guys hang out now. (Yes, I know about it. I hope you didn't think that I wouldn't find out.)
Dude, long story short, you can be a really really crappy person. I, also, can be a really crappy person for thinking that you might, one day, change. I should learn my lesson one of these days. You should learn your lesson one of these days as well. One day you are going to break the wrong promise and it will be the end all be all. Just like you have always been scared about. Good Luck out there kid.
