If only you could've seen me before God stepped in. If only you could have been there to help pull me out of the pit. If only you could have seen the fear and the pain that overtook me. If only you could have experienced that firsthand. Then maybe, maybe I would let you judge just a little. But you weren't. You weren't there. You didn't see what I put myself through. You didn't see where I came from. I'm a completely different person than I used to be. I've changed so much since then. My past is my past for a reason. You don't go back. There's no point in going back. Besides, you can't go back. There's no living in the land of the dead. You see, I do things differently because of what I've been through. I've been to Hell and back. I've fought demons I hope nobody ever faces. I've seen and done things that I pray that I can push people far away from that path.

Yes, I'm different. I'm different than your average "church-goer." I'm more than a "church-goer." I'm a follower. I'm a follower of Jesus. Jesus pulled me away from my past. Jesus completely changed my life and future. So yes, I'm not your "Sunday morning Christian," I'm more than that. I'm a worshiper. I worshipped my way out of my battles. I worship when things go right, and I worship when things go wrong. I worship, because God will always be God. He's always there. He watched me fight and He gave me the strength to win. He didn't leave me in the wilderness alone. He was just simply waiting for me to call on Him. He was waiting for me to realize that I needed Him. So when you see me worshipping The God Who pulled me out of the fight, don't judge.

Do not judge the way I worship Him, because you didn't see me at my lowest. You weren't watching like God was. You weren't there all those nights, all those years. He was. He was always there. God always stood by my side. He showed me how much strength I had. He showed me that I could get away from everything that I was doing. My praise pulled me out of the pit that I was dwelling in. I thought that I couldn’t come back from how far I had gone. I didn't think there was any hope left for me. I believed that I was a goner. BUT GOD. But God knew different. But God had a plan. He knew that I going to pull myself out of when I finally realized that I needed Him. Now.. Now I know that I can't make it a day without Him. Now I praise when I get up and when I lay down. I start and end each day with my creator. I may not always be in a tough place, but when I am - I am equipped with His Word. So don't try to pretend or think that you know me. You don't. Don't try to judge me. You weren't there/ I was alone in a dry and weary place, but God was always watching me. He deserves all of the glory and all of the credit for everything good that I do. He rescued me. So now, I worship Him, and I plan to continue to worship Him every chance that I get. Don't judge my breakthrough until you’ve seen my been through.