stag·nant
/ˈstaɡnənt/
adjective
1. characterized by lack of development,advancement, or progressive movement:
2. inactive, sluggish, or dull.
On To Pimp a Butterfly – an album by Kendrick Lamar, a poem is progressively delivered throughout all of his songs. It has to do with wanting to transition for the better, resentment, depression and guilt. Here it is below.
"I remember you was conflicted
Misusing your influence
Sometimes I did the same
Abusing my power, full of resentment
Resentment that turned into a deep depression
Found myself screaming in a hotel room
I didn't want to self destruct
The evils of Lucy was all around me
So I went running for answers"
I added Lamar's poem in order for you to portray a description in which you could create for yourself to get an idea in which it feels like to be at a constant battle with yourself when it comes into terms with self-accomplishments.
This article is dedicated to those that search for happiness and contentment throughout everything they set their mind to. I hope to get you through this.
I am one, too that tends to struggle with being content in the 'now'. One too many times I find myself in a constant battle with wanting more and craving to escape every single aspect in life with a new start elsewhere. The best way I can explain this is as if I know that I belong in another setting and deserve so much more and what the 'now' is, is not at all where I belong. I've come to understand and am mature enough to accept the fact that actually going through with being patient will only make sense of this. That the transition in which I'm making for myself with later on result in what I intend to be – or even close. But at times, what I seem to forget is that what I have not yet accomplished will only take dedication and faith in myself.
For those that are going through the same – I want to let you know that this feeling is only temporary. That as long as you keep your goals set in mind on what you crave and dream about at night for yourself will someday be in your hands and something that you will take pride in. Have faith and let inspiration carry you.
I know, I could relate all too well when I say that I already know what it feels like to want to pack up and leave everything behind you. I know that you only want the best of the best for yourself and strive to create opportunities and learn all you could which can open up a numerous amount of things that you dream of. This is the right mindset – you're on the right path; but you are way too naïve and hard on yourself right now. I get it.
The amount of time you take in the day to better yourself is each minute you're taking up to grow, learn something new, create and work on something you love. You know this. Why else would you be doing it, right?
Please keep in mind that as long as you are passionate, love and pour all of your attention and prioritize your decisions that you WILL make it.
Keep going. It will all be worth it in the end.