"I'm not leaving until you decide what you want or tell me to leave, I'm by your side through and through." You're so brave and I'll never understand why you would choose me of all people, but we'll look into that a little bit later. You chose me and I can't tell you how much that means to me, or how much it scares me...

I loved someone once and they weren't too kind to me...he lied, he cheated, he repeatedly shattered my heart into a million and fifty-eight pieces. But as much as I don't want anything to do with us to be about him, there are some things you deserve to know.

I hope you'll know I'm not blaming you for his mistakes when I shutter after you put your hand around my waist for the first time. His hands were only sweet and gentle like that when he wanted something or felt he had to be possessive and show that only he could have the right to talk to me or stand close

I hope you'll understand my constant need for validation, it something I'm working on, but when I look at you for the fifth time that tonight and ask if you're sure you like this dress on me, please be patient. The things he put me through broke me in a way I'll never truly understand, he took every ounce of self-worth I had with him when he left and I had to rebuild everything myself...and Rome wasn't built in a day.

I hope you know how sorry I am for not trusting you, yet. He took so many small ties and made them into such signifcant events...I can't believe you won't do the same. Not yet. When I seem antsy or skittish when you tell me where you've been, please just understand someone once told me I was their home at the same time he brought someone else into mine.

I hope you know I'm not comparing you to him. Your eyes are the sky. His were the sea, so dark and deceptive. It was like even when he was honest with me, he always had something to hide. He wouldn't ever open up to me. But you and yours, my darling, your's show endless oppurtuinity and adventure. You have given up yet...there's so much more to you than anyother person I've ever met.

I hope you don't turn out the same way he did. I hope you're more honest than that. I hope you're everything you promised me you are. I hope we stay up for a thousand more late nights while you tell me things I could have never dreamt of knowning before you walked into my life. I hope you fall asleep in my lap for a thousand more movie nights. I hope we watch thousand more sunrises together. I hope you stil look at me like that for a thousand more lifetimes. I hope this is real and you've done what I thought no one could ever do and taught me to love again...this time without fear.