Why You Need To Let Him Go | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Relationships

Why You Need To Let Him Go

It's all bullsh*t.

50
Why You Need To Let Him Go
Emma Cecil

There is nothing warm about laying in the arms of someone cold.

Like a mid-December night, the air you breathe is lifeless. Life is lackluster. Everything feels cold.

You finally realize it.

Sometimes it's nothing. Sometimes it's overnight. No explanation. No reason.

Something is wrong but no one is brave enough to confront it. A familiar face turns into that of someone you hardly recognize. Everything stops and everything changes. Everything is an argument. Everything is negative. Everything you do is wrong. "You take everything personal." "You don't get jokes." Things he used to love about you turn stale. You have to shove things down his throat that he used to do on his own.

Excuses exude from the pores of his skin...Why he can't talk to you, why he can't see you, why he didn't talk to you for a week straight, why he can't tell you how he feels, why he hasn't invited you over, why he drinks so much, why he acts the way he does.

And quite frankly, it's allbullsh*t.

You stop holding your head high. Your confidence slowly dissipates. You're walking on eggshells. He hurts you and you let it go. He doesn't apologize and you let it go. He talks to her and you let it go. He ignores you and you let it go. You let it all go. Until you ask if he cares or if he's sorry or if he feels a single thing...anything. Because you're bursting at the seams. You have been. And now he's red with anger. Or his face is stone cold. Or he laughs. Because how could you question anything he's done? It's not wrong. He's not wrong. That night he went out, unbeknownst to you, when his plans were with you... it wasn't wrong. When you catch that he was seeing someone else when he first started seeing you...that wasn't wrong. When he has to delete texts... that's not wrong. When you catch him in a lie...it wasn't wrong. When he drowns his mind with alcohol because he doesn't want to see you when he's just a block away... you guessed it, that wasn't wrong either.

He's right.

In his selfish mind, he's not wrong because he doesn't even know how to consider anyone other than himself.

You start to realize you're drowning just to keep him afloat.

The happiness flashes through your head. Who he was flashes through your head. The memories you've made flash through your head. When you met and what he was wearing. Who he was when he first said hello. But you knew for some time that he wasn't that person anymore. You look back on memories and realize there was always a void. The things done for you weren't genuine, they were done so he could use them as ammo later. He did them to please you and to make up for the lack of happiness he provided you with. There is nothing worse than someone changing your perception of them. But you didn't want to leave, you didn't want to give up. Maybe you thought you couldn't. You weren't strong enough. You're not good at giving up. You thought you needed him.

You thought wrong.

You let go and realize...

There was only loneliness, sleepless nights, and crying if you'd stayed.

This emptiness isn't what love is supposed to be. It's not happiness. Respect yourself enough to know that you are deserving of someone far greater than this. There is someone who won't throw you away each and every night. There is someone who will stay up with you on those tough sleepless nights to make everything better. There is someone who will answer your phone calls and light up just knowing you want to hear their voice. There is someone that won't put an inhale of smoke or a bottle of alcohol before you. There is someone who won't let you feel unlovable. There is someone who will show up at your doorstep just to give you a hug and apologize because the last thing they could ever want, is to lose you. They won't let you go when things get tough. They'll fix their mistakes, they'll right their wrongs, they'll listen when you let them know they've hurt you. They aren't okay if you're not okay.

There is someone who will make you laugh and allow you to forget every crack in your shattered heart.


Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Student Life

A Few Thoughts Every College Freshman Has

The transition into adulthood is never easy

19763
Mays Island
Courtney Jones

Today I started my third week of college at Minnesota State Moorhead. I have survived welcome week, finding my classes on the first day, and being an awkward loner in the dining hall. Even though I have yet to be here for a month, I have already experienced many thoughts and problems that only a new college student can relate to.

Keep Reading...Show less
Students walking on a sunny college campus with trees and buildings.

"Make sure to get involved when you're in college!"

We've all heard some variation of this phrase, whether it came from parents, other family members, friends, RAs, or college-related articles. And, like many clichés, it's true for the most part. Getting involved during your college years can help you make friends, build your resume, and feel connected to your campus. However, these commitments can get stressful if you're dealing with personal issues, need to work, or aren't sure how to balance classes and everything else going on during the semester.

Keep Reading...Show less
Relationships

9 Reasons Why Friends Are Essential In College

College without friends is like peanut butter without jelly.

8335
Bridgaline Liberati and friends
Bridgaline Liberati

In college, one of the essential things to have is friends. Yes, textbooks, a laptop, and other school supplies are important but friends are essential. Friends are that support system everybody needs. The more friends you have the better the support system you have. But you also have someone to share experiences with. And don’t settle for just one or two friends because 8 out of 10 times they are busy and you are studying all alone. Or they have other friend groups that do not include you. Don’t settle for just one or two friends; make as many friends as you can. After the first couple of weeks of college, most friend groups are set and you may be without friends.

Keep Reading...Show less
Lifestyle

The Power of Dressing Up

Why it pays to leave the hoodie at home.

6048
sneakers and heels
Sister | Brother Style - Word Press

For a moment your world is spinning. The phone alarm has just scared you awake and you’re flooded by daunting thoughts of the day ahead. You have three assignments due and little time to work on them because of your job. You’re running late because you’ve hit snooze one to many times after yesterday’s long hours. You dizzily reach for a hoodie, craving its comfort, and rush for a speedy exit, praying you will have time to pick up coffee. Does this sound familiar?

Keep Reading...Show less
Entertainment

11 Signs You Live At The Library As Told by 'Parks And Recreation'

A few signs that you may live in the library whether you'd like to admit it or not.

5240
brown wooden book shelves with books

Finals week is upon us. It is a magical time of year during which college students everywhere flock to the library in attempt to learn a semester's worth of knowledge in only a week. For some students, it's their first time in the library all semester, maybe ever. Others have slaved away many nights under the fluorescent lights, and are slightly annoyed to find their study space being invaded by amateurs. While these newbies wander aimlessly around the first floor, hopelessly trying to find a table, the OGs of the library are already on the third floor long tables deep into their studies. Here is a few signs that you may live in the library, whether you'd like to admit it or not.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments