To the boy who doesn't understand: this might help.

I've gone through it in my head a thousand times, and I can't bare the thought. You are one of my best friends. How could I ruin that with a few stupid feelings?

The thing is, the feelings won't stop. They come at me in every direction at a million miles per hour. They continue to grow, no matter how much I want them to stop.

It's like a fire inside of my heart that I can't control, these feelings. No matter how hard I try to put it out, something lights it up again. What's frustrating as hell is that I don't think you feel the same fire. And because of this, I'm scared.

I'm scared that you think of me differently now that you know.

I'm scared that we don't want the same things.

I'm scared to act on these amazing feelings because I don't want to push you away even more than I already have.

I'm scared that I'm going to get hurt again.

I know I've screwed up in the past. Who hasn't? But I put my heart out there for you. It's yours. You just have to choose what to do with it.

I'm not asking for much. Maybe not even anything if that's not what you want. All I amasking is to keep our friendship intact. I'm terrified to lose you. I don't know what I would do. Believe me when I say I would rather keep you in my life as a friend and nothing else then lose you all together. You're too important to me.

I cannot dictate where your heart leads you. I cannot control the way you feel. I cannot push something to happen if it's not there for you too.

No matter what the outcome is, you have to know that I will always be here for you. If you need someone to listen, give advice, maybe just someone to talk to, you can always come to me.

Because that's what friends are for, right?