An open letter to the boy of my dreams found at the wrong time:

Our situation is not easily understood.

What I don’t know is why destiny blessed you into my life during a time that cannot work out. I mean, college is temporary, right? And, of course, the other circumstances that keep us from the light. Trust me, if it weren’t for them, I can promise you I would shout from the highest mountain just how much you mean to me. I will never understand why you couldn’t have come along a few years from now…free from the chains that bind us.

Did destiny bring you to me just as a lesson? To show me that there are men out there that have the ability to love me the way I deserve? Maybe your purpose was for self-reflection; to recognize my own worth. I really do not know and, frankly, these questions may remain unanswered forever.

On the other hand, what I do know is that you will remain unforgettable, no matter where life takes us. I can always remember your unconditional kindness and caring nature. I can always remember your touch and the butterflies that fill my stomach anytime you are near. I can always smile upon the memories we have had. I will always be able to relate you to something positive. I know you are what I’ve always dreamed of and what I will continue to dream about.

I know that my feelings for you are unusual; I’ve never felt this way before. Before you, I was quick to become possessive of things I loved (I guess you could say I didn’t learn the "sharing" rule in Preschool). But with you, it’s totally different. A famous quote by Osho best describes my newfound reaction. “If you love a flower, don’t pick it up. Because if you pick it up, it dies and ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.” I do not need to possess you to be satisfied with you. I can honestly say I want the absolute best for you. I want you to follow your dreams and reach your maximum potential. I want you to find the girl of your dreams, even if that girl is not me and I do not expect it to be.

So wherever life takes us, through all of its uncertainties, I can only be thankful to have gotten a taste of your love and affection. I can only hope that we can meet once again, at a time that our lives permit something more.

Love,

The girl who had a taste of heaven