You’ve got me under a spell.

It’s like you’ve taken over my mind, like I’m in a trance. Everywhere I look, there you are, with those big brown eyes and that pearly white smile. When I’m not with you, my mind goes blank. It’s like nothing else in the world matter but you.

I long for your touch. I stand there, silently praying your hand will accidentally brush against mine. I want nothing more than to be embraced by your strong arms, and never leave. I want nothing more than to hear that infectious laugh. Sometimes I go back and think about the way your head would fall back and the cute way you would squint your eyes whenever I made a stupid and corny joke.

I think about all the deep conversations we had. I long to have more of them, as you made me feel like I could come to you for anything. I trusted you and you trusted me. Simple. We were each other’s best friend, but also each other’s worst enemy. We had a love/hate relationship, but, we somehow made it work.

You could be stubborn. I could be sassy. You could be an ass. I could be sensitive. We were so wrong for each other but, at the same time, we were so right.

Of course though, there was something in the way. How could you not see it? How could we both be so blind? How could we both walk around looking for happiness, when we were each other’s happiness? How could we let ourselves waste all that time, all that time that we could’ve spent together?

You said you’re not easy.

I said I didn’t want easy.

You said you didn’t deserve me.

I said why couldn’t you let yourself love?

You said you were scared.

Baby, so was I.

You said I deserved better.

But, why couldn’t you understand that I didn’t want better, I wanted you.

I fell for you. You made me feel like the luckiest girl alive. I didn’t care about the consequences. All I wanted was to have you by my side. But, I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t pretty enough, skinny enough. I wasn’t enough.

You had me under your magic spell, and I fell for all your tricks. And we were alright. Until you realized that your spells worked on others. And you left me in the dust. You turned around, walked away and never looked back. You found happiness in another. You continued to be present in my life, as a friend.

And while you go out using your magic charms, I sit here alone at night thinking of ways to undo the spell you have me under. To let the darkness, take over the light, you left in my life.