I am disgusted when I look in a mirror. I hate the way I look. I hate how far I've let my body go. I hate that I'm not skinny.

I exercise five times a week. I eat 1-2 meals a day. But, I'm still fat.

I try so hard to change the way i look. I want to look in a mirror and feel satisfied. I want to stop obsessing over the fat on my body. I want to be able to take a full body picture and not feel like I need to hide. I want to wear whatever i think is cute rather than picking something out, trying it on, and have to put it right back because it shows too much fat.

I hate it.

I see other people who can just turn their life around by going to the gym a few times a week. I see other people who can rock whatever clothing they have on. I don't understand why I can't be like them. I'm putting in so much effort to try and slim down and I have no results.

My goal is to be able to walk around and just feel comfortable. Right now I am always concerned about my thighs jiggling or my love handles sticking out. I am so uncomfortable at all times. I just want to hide under a blanket at all times so no one can see what I see.

I have worked so hard to get my body in shape and I still hate it. It's not fair. I want to see results that reflect the effort I have put in. I want someone to be able to notice changes in my body.