There has always been a vision of myself that I held quietly in my head and my heart. I imagine myself eating strictly organic foods, practicing yoga and meditation, going for morning jogs, keeping a clean house and an empty laundry basket, all while maintaining a full time job, a social life and good grades. There are times when I thought that this vision of me was my best self. I loved and hated it. This vision gave me the drive to push myself; to want to be better than I used to be. However, this vision was also me constantly questioning my self worth.

Over time, I've realized that this unobtainable vision is not me. I am the person who loves carbs, and cheeseburgers. I am addicted to caffeine. I am too lazy to get up from my Netflix binge (probably too many times during the week). Sometimes the laundry basket gets too full, or the dishes don't get done. I've realized that this is me, and that it's alright.

I let myself get sucked into the social media frenzy. I admit, I like looking at photos of celebrities eating such clean meals and going on their daily hike in the mountains. I used to look at these people for inspiration to change who I am, but not anymore. Their seemingly perfect lives are nothing compared to the life I have now. I am perfectly imperfect, and I realize that I don't want to change a thing.

I am happy with my untanned legs, and my non-existent six pack. I am happy with my fiance, and tiny home. I am happy with my friends, my family, my job and my education. I am happy with my two cats, my dog and my Walmart brand clothes. I am grateful to be at and love where I am. I am young, and I make mistakes, and I am enjoying the journey so far.

My vision of me is not who I am, and I am thankful for that.