To the best thing I never had:

There was a time in my life if you had told me we would never be together again it would knock the breath out of me. Then I would have secretly thought," oh yes we will. You'll come back. They all come back". That's the thing, you did come back. You'll say otherwise but you did. You came back late at night when no one could see your truck in my driveway. You came back when you had "one to many", and my house was close by the party you were at. You came back when the girl you took to the party went home with someone else. You came back when you needed a sober driver to take you in my car from party to party. You came back when nobody else wanted you but you knew I wanted you.

I kept thinking you'd wake up out of your drunken stupor and see. You know see this lust stricken girl who wanted nothing but you. Yeah I was crazy, young, immature and probably irrational a lot. I mean we had dated for two years prior to this and excuse me for still caring, thinking if I pick him up enough, answer every drunken phone call and text as fast as I can, that'll show him. That'll show him I'm the one who truly cares. I'll take just any little bit he'll give. I was pitiful. Our friends didn't say it, but they thought it.

Here's where I want to thank you. Thank you from the little insecure girl who thought you were "the best thing" that she never had who's turn into a woman who knows exactly what she deserves because of the hell you put me through. Someone better than you. I deserve phone calls and texts while the sun is shining. I deserve to ride in the passenger side of someone's vehicle and be taken care of. I deserve to be the girl on someone's arm during AND after the party. Thank you for not "wanting me back". Because it let me give the nice guy who wanted me a chance and I just so happened to fall in love with that nice guy and married him. So thank you for helping me not make the biggest mistake of my life.

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