This is strictly for my best friend. However, this can apply to almost anyone. Why? Because a mass majority of us all know what it is like to be in a toxic relationship. It's not fair, and it isn't right: but we know what it is like. I will never understand or comprehend why some relationships are so cruel. It isn't fair that almost all of us know what it's like to be cheated on and feel emotionally exhausted. However, we learn from these immature, stupid human beings who lack empathy. No one should ever have to endure such cruelty, and above all, neither should my best friend.
We, as in every human who has been bullied by their relationship, get it. Here we spend so much time invested in a single human being: a single soul. We push ourselves to believe that they do, deep down, care about us and our feelings. We search for the best in people, and that isn't necessarily a downfall. We wants what's best for them. That's why at the end of the day when you are sitting at home, crying... you believe it's your fault. It's not.
We understand how hard it is to let go. The process after a breakup is rough. It involves pretending you don't care and that you aren't hurt. It means desperately trying to shove the memories you have together in the back of your head. It's a day by day process and it sucks.
I can state the obvious: you're my best friend. You are unbelievably beautiful, smart and kind. You do not deserve a toxic relationship. You do not deserve the emotional abuse. I don't want you sitting at home, alone crying. I don't want you questioning where he is, or who he is with. Most of all, I do not want you to ever ask yourself why you are not good enough. That's bullshit. No one is ever, in this world, not "good enough." We have all asked ourselves this once or twice, and we shouldn't. We are good enough, and as everyone says, we just need the right person.
I don't know personally, if I believe that one day I am going to find the man of my dreams. I don't know if I believe in love at first sight. I don't know what I believe about love in general, which is how all of us feel after fighting through a toxic relationship. I do know, however, that if there is some type of unbreakable love worth fighting over, you deserve that kind of love: not this. I want you to know your worth. I do not want you to question it because one stranger you decided to let into your life with open arms, told you so. They only have that power if you give it to them, obviously.
Overall, the one love I wish for you is that you are always happy, and content. That you never have to doubt him and that you can trust him: at the least, that he will always reassure you. I only want what's best for you. I'll wait with you till your ready to move on, and I will be there when you do. It's hard, but you're tough. That's why you are my best friend.
Unfortunately, a lot of people know exactly what I am talking about. A lot of us have told our best friends these exact words, but there is no harm in reiterating your worth. I will tell you everyday that you deserve better if you need me to.
You're my best friend, and as we always tell each other... you deserve the world. Not this.