"Breaking with old friends is one of the most painful of the changes in all that piling up of a multitude of small distasteful changes that constitutes growing older." - John Dos Passos
Growing up and moving on from our younger selves can be a really stressful and painful time in our lives.
If someone would have told me two years ago where we would be now, I never would have believed them.
In fact, there were people who warned me. I just never wanted to listen.
We grew up hearing about how the friends we made during our teenage years most likely wouldn't be our friends forever.
We all thought we were different.
We both had many friendships dwindle throughout the years.
Honestly, though, whenever we became best friends, I thought that I had finally found that unbreakable friendship bond they talk about in the movies.
I can still remember all of the nights we didn't sleep a wink.
All of the parties.
All of the secrets and stories we shared with each other.
You were the only person I felt like I could cry to when my heart had been broken for the millionth time.
Sometimes I felt like you knew me better than I knew myself and that was a crazy cool feeling to have.
I still remember the time you told me I had feelings for a boy that I swore, and honestly thought, I didn't have feelings for.
Girl, were you right.
And when he broke my heart, just like the ones before him, you were there.
I had been so scared and lonely my entire life and then when we became friends, I became a different person.
I found my wild side, even if it did get us into some trouble now and again.
However, I also found the side of me who craves adventure and ran towards the fun instead of away from it.
We spent days riding around in my car blaring music and singing at the top of our lungs to every genre we came across.
We spent the nights finding parties, adventures, friends, and fun times that we'll definitely remember when we reminisce on the "good ole days."
I never knew what it felt like to have a best friend before you and I couldn't be more grateful for that.
Eventually, we had a falling out and made up, but we had grown too far apart.
I grieved the loss of my best friend, which was definitely a hard thing to lose.
Believe me though, I will always have love for you in my heart.
And one day I'll have to decide which stories about us I want to tell my children and which ones I'll have to hide.
I'll look back on those days and remember the amazing nights and happiness I felt in my heart and soul.
You helped me get through a lot of bad things in my life and I will always be forever grateful.
Maybe one day life will bring us back into each other's paths.
Until then, thank you for the wonderful friendship and amazing times.
It sure was a wild ride.
