In the college dating world, things get very messy. People are so confusing and trust can be hard to find. It usually seems better to just stay to yourselves and close friends. Guys and girls are playing each other or not taking into account the feelings and emotions at play. Unfortunately, I have been the "other girl' too many times and it sucks every single time.
So to the other "other girls," and the one currently upset with me,
I am sorry. I'm sorry that he's talking and messing with both of us. I'm sorry he still messages or snaps me even when I ignore him. I'm sorry that he doesn't get the hint when I reference what he says, back to you. I found out about you and let him go. Maybe I should have told you straight up instead of trying to make his blind eyes see. I apologize for the Facebook message you saw pop up when he didn't log out on your computer, but I wish you would have clicked and read. You would have viewed me turning his advances around to you. Trying to make him see that you should be the only one he's trying to 'chill' with. You may still have been aggravated with me but I also hope you would have been mad at him. I'm also sorry that I don't blatantly tell him to knock it off. He sucks, and I'm sorry for both of us.
Finding out that you're just another name on a list is a damned thing. You get so pissed and sad at the same time. You ask yourself why you never seem to be good enough to be the only one occupying his inbox. You're not the only one on the list, so don't be so hard on yourself. Girls and guys do the same thing and it will always suck not being a top priority. We just need to grasp that if it doesn't make us happy, we need to drop it. I refuse to feel special or continue to let someone use me no matter how good the attention may feel. Make sure you let them know that you are not a pawn.
This has happened to me too many times than I'd like to admit but that's what happens when people no longer know what they have. We take everything for granted and, unfortunately, it's the great people that make time for us and show us affection. I always tell myself that I won't let it happen again. I won't fall for the wrong guy and get hurt. I'll somehow make sure that I'm the only one he needs but it doesn't work out that way. I'm completely fine with this. I'm learning what these guys aren't worth my sweet words and time I'm spending on them. I am all too happy to cut ties and worry about myself again. Don't let yourself continue to be the other girl because you are so much better than that and if some guy doesn't realize that then they don't know that they want, hence more than one girl.
