Sometimes in life you’ll find a person who you are completely and utterly infatuated with. This sounds great except for when you realize the feeling isn’t always mutual. This is of course a fact of life. Not everyone is going to feel the same way you do and no one has to. That’s fine and dandy until one day you realize you’re emotions are a little off.
Your heart is emotionally taken, but is physically up for grabs. You’re not in a relationship with a person, but you find yourself turning down other people because of a person who has shown you that their feelings for you are different than yours.
Sometimes it can get a little confusing depending on the other person and how they express their emotions. Sometimes they might seem like they are physically interested in you the same way you are to them. Other times they can seem more emotionally invested and show no physical connection at all. You might feel a whole lot and think they do too, but you can tell there is something off by the way they are disconnected in other ways.
No matter what the details are with the other person, you’ve found yourself acting as though you are in a relationship, but it’s completely one sided. You would drop anything and everyone for that one person and they probably know it too. That person affects so many of your choices on a daily basis whether they know it or you even know it or not. You’ve now began basing decisions off of them while you sit and watch them do whatever they want and you probably don’t even cross their mind once.
You watch them and wait around for their convenience because they’re all you want no matter how much you know that you are completely more invested than they are and that this is probably just something fun for them when they feel like it. You’ve let them make you an option in their life when they’re the only choice you even see. They have you so blinded that you seem to not even care and become completely ignorant of what this situation even actually is.
One of the most difficult things about this is that you almost have to pretend that everything they do doesn't hurt or affect you. You don't have a label, you're not in a relationship so no one will understand why you're upset. You're even told you can't be upset. What I feel feels real, but emotion can only be a thing when their is a title, right?
I’m not saying there is ever a time to give up and hey, sometimes people’s feelings change and things end up having a happy ending. If it’s what you truly want and you know you won’t be happy without that person then keep on chasing them. Persistence is great, but what is important is recognizing your worth and realizing what is ok to allow yourself to be put through and when enough is enough.
