I thought I finally had everything I was always looking for when I found you.

Just like that you became my best friend and love all in one. We were always so in sync and like two peas in a pod. In the words of Taylor Swift, I thought I was "doing better than I ever was". You made me believe in love again, you made me believe in the good of people again, but it was all a LIE. It was all a LIE.

You did the worst thing someone could do, you cheated on me.

I have expected a lot of shit from a lot of people, but I never expected you to do this to me. I would have bet money that you would be the last person to do something like this. But I was clearly wrong about you. Because you're everything I thought you were you're not.

It hasn't even been a full day since I found everything out. Every two seconds it feels like someone is knocking the wind out of me. The pain I am feeling is like nothing I have ever felt before because it is so different. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy.

I feel dirty, like I need to take 30 showers.

I feel manipulated and used, because all along, I thought I was the only one.

I feel angry, because I don't understand how you could do this anyone, but especially me.

I feel like I can't trust anyone.

I feel my mind going crazy going over every single moment we spent together, every deep meaningful conversation we had. I feel my mind going crazy trying to figure out what happened and how I didn't know.

I feel heartbroken.

But most of all I feel sorry for you. Because you lost someone who loved and adored you with everything she had. You lost your best friend. You lost someone who envisioned everything you wanted for your future.

You lost me... and losing me will be the biggest mistake you've ever made.