Attempt after attempt after attempt none of them worked, none of them lessened the pain, none of them made her eat or sleep more, nor did they help her get over everything that she was going through.

There are a lot of things that go on in our lives that we as students or even people in general do not speak of or acknowledge. We tend to walk around with smiles on our faces laughing and acting like everything is great, when in reality it is far from it. Behind our smiles we are often dealing with hurt and pain, depression, suicidal thoughts, anger and so much more.

Depression and suicidal thoughts can not only be painful for the person going through it but for the families and friends of the people as well.

Years ago I found myself attempt after attempt going through the motions of life trying to go through life hiding the pain and misery I was in. I knew that taking myself out of the pain would hurt my friends and family but at the time I also knew that I was not happy. It took my big sister and my best friend to make me realize that people cared and that there was a better way to deal with my pain. Depression was not something I was aware of before my experience with it nor was it something that I thought would happen to me. It took years, four years to be exact for me to grasp a hold on my motions and will myself back to reality. My reality was that taking myself out would not help anyone it would only cause more pain. The other reality that I was not aware of at that time was that I was placed here for a reason, and denying God of his reason for putting me here would not be easy.

I was a girl of faith, and I still am. However, what adults do not tell the generations under them is that it is okay to feel. It is okay to feel pain, heartache, misery, to go through depression but it is not okay to get stuck in it. What got me out was the one thing that held me together for so many years, my faith. My faith in God has gotten me through brokenness, and hard times and has been the one thing to get me into some of the greatest situations in my life.