Thoughts.
Everyone has bad days, and sad feelings, and negative thoughts.
It is all normal.
It is all legitimate.
It affects all of our lives in slightly different ways. How we deal with it, how we feel better, how we get in touch with our vulnerable sides.
It is how we deal with emotions that makes us who we are. This is cliche, but it would not be a cliche if it did not have some truth.
Feelings.
Between last winter and now, I have had (and am still having) the toughest time of my life. There are ups and downs, but mostly downs. I am sad, but it is okay.
It goes away. I always have a tough time remembering that it does, but it is all okay in the end.
I waited until the last minute to get this done, but I am so glad that I did.
Everything that happened this week was good and bad and sad and exciting in some way.
If this is a little like word vomit, I apologize.
I am trying to write something happy, and do not know how well it is going, but in reality, I am sad. Not 'I dropped my ice cream' sad, but the 'hopeless, pessimistic, awful' sad.
Life.
Life sucks. Things that you never dreamed of happening happen. You lose people that you are close to and you are too upset to get them back. Parents yell and you listen, trying to hold back tears.Your grandparents get older and you cannot help but watch from the sidelines.
It feels like you will never be good enough. No matter what grades you get, social life you have, paycheck you get, it feels like nothing is good enough.
Sadness is a part of life, it is a major part in my life right now, and I want to say that I am working on being happier to please everyone, but I am not.
Me.
The little things remind me how great life can be. Petting a random dog on the street, having a stranger hold the door open for you, seeing the sun shining bright over the horizon.
And then the big things. I met someone who may end up having the biggest impact on my life this week. I got a great job with a great company. I talked to my best friend for the first time in weeks today.
This really has no structure and I have no idea where I am going with any of this, but if you make it to the end of my rambling article, just remember this: everything will be okay in the end, if it is not okay, then it is not the end.
