Disclaimer: This article is about my life. It has not been written to slur or indirectly talk about anyone. I wrote this for me--- not anyone else.
Beginnings are where it all begins.
Beginnings set the stage and the tone of whatever is about to happen.
Beginnings are what determines how the ending will unfold and how the duration of the event will happen.
Beginnings are beautiful. Beginnings are meaningful. Beginnings hold so much.
In movies, if the beginning is not good, you watch something else. It's the same thing with books; if the beginning is not good, you find another book.
Recently, in life, I have learned that there are many beginnings.
Different parts of Ecclesiastes 3:1-11 say, “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak. He hath made everything beautiful in His time.”
I chose specific parts of this scripture because they are the ones that describe the beginnings of my life. There have been many times that it has seemed as if I was starting over.
After failed relationships, friendships, and many other things, it is like I have started over. Sometimes I do not say a word and let all of my emotions bottle up, but other times, I feel that I have the confidence and joy to speak.
Emotionally, I have felt dead, but then I have felt more alive than ever before. My emotions and happiness have been killed, then reborn. I have had many breakdowns, but God has built me up. Tears are frequent, but so are laughs. I have lost people but gained more.
Through it all, I have found that there are many reasons behind everything I have been through. Not everything is meant to be. No matter the effort or prayer put into something, it may not always be meant to last.
I know that I am not the only person that has experienced moments like this in my life. At the end of the day, God ultimately holds our future.
Sometimes we may find ourselves as feeling alone or as if nothing is going wrong, but as long as we can handle the truth, we can realize that God has us. His plan is perfect and right on time, although it may not be "ideal" for us, it will all work out.
Sometimes God brings new beginnings into our life to let it result in a more beneficial ending to us.
Savor the beginnings. Enjoy the beginnings. Beginnings are beautiful.