I'm probably one of the most indecisive people you will ever meet; I can barely pick between two pairs of shoes that have been sitting in my online shopping cart for two weeks. It's not because I have commitment issues - there are just so many things I want and desire to do with my life, that I don't know what to tackle first or even what I'm really doing here. I am also so afraid of making the wrong choice, but I have found out that college is about finding yourself and making dumb decisions without logic every single time, which I continue to do every single day, and I am presented with countless options everyday on what my next destination could be in life.

People say college is your last chance to make mistakes - ones that won't potentially affect your entire family or won't completely ruin your life to the point of no return. I truly believe that, too. If there is anything I have learned in my freshmen year and first half of sophomore year, it is that it is okay to be indecisive and mess up things the first go-round; you don't have to be a perfect, especially in college. Now is the time to experiment and not know what you're going to do for the rest of your life. I went to High Point University my freshmen year (even though all of my close high school friends, counselors, and my family were all questioning me on why I wasn't going to UNC-Chapel Hill, which is one of the best schools on the East Coast) and found out halfway through second semester that I really was not happy with where I was physically or emotionally at that school. I found myself to be sad at the end of everyday because I was not around people that made me feel good about myself; they made me feel like I would not live up to my full potential, mostly because most of them were filthy rich and could afford to take awhile to get their degree and not really do anything with it. I'm not saying everyone was like that, but my academic potential was not being met there, so I made the really difficult decision to leave all of my friends, my sorority sisters, and everything that I had known for a year behind to start fresh at UNC-Chapel Hill. That was a life-changing decision, and I continue to grow and develop my morals and beliefs every single day in Chapel Hill; it is very open-minded city full of opportunity and I am head-over-heels in love with it. So, don't feel pressured to figure out your entire being just in freshmen year or your college years following; life is about growth and trial and error, and you have plenty of time after college to truly get your life together. But, take it from me, you should take advantage of every opportunity you can throughout college and afterwards, too. And if you're truly unhappy, make a change that is best for you, even if it one of the most challenging things you have done or leave behind.

So, I encourage you to embrace your cluelessness and confusing as hell days - we all have them, trust me. Yesterday, I questioned my entire life, like what am I even doing here? Why am I so bad at marine science? I love the concepts, but I'm so bad at it. I love women's studies, so I've decided to minor in it pretty recently. What am I going to do with it? I have no idea, maybe I'll write for a women's magazine, maybe I'll just raise my children to believe in equality amongst genders. Either way, I'm getting something out of it. I love being creative and producing my own art, even if it may not be the most lucrative business, I plan on minoring in Studio Art just because I can. If you're going through college, you might as well do things and major/minor in things that matter to you, even if your parents and peers don't support you. This is your time to figure your life out and do crazy things that make you happy, regardless of whether or not you get monetary means for doing so. At the end of the day, you will be compensated emotionally and spiritually, and you'll be way happier than your friends that are on the Pre-Med track because their parents are forcing them to do so.

So, be indecisive, question your purpose because if you aren't, you might be surprised when one day you wake up and realize you really aren't that happy with where you're at in your life like I recently, and you'll wish you had read this and taken my advice...

~ P.S. If you haven't fallen in love yet, and you know you're an indecisive, yet stubborn being like myself, let it go and just text the boy. It could turn into something amazing, and I am speaking from experience. ~