I can't seem to sleep
I lay in my bed
It's 2:17
I miss you
But, I can't change what's been written in stone
So I turn to face the cold wall
I look up
Just inches away from me is the banner
It reminds me of you
What we were a month ago
I can't stand the sight of it now
So
With just all the muscles of my right arm and
a quick yank
It is on the floor
No longer hanging from the wall
The banner
Can no longer taunt me anymore
But my memories of you do
Maybe I'll put the banner up again
Just so I can spite myself
But no
It continues to stay on the floor
as I get up to get a glass of water
mixed with black label and vanilla
To gulp down six sleeping pills
and 30 mL of Nyquil
I know it'll help me sleep
I climb back up
Giving the banner a quick kick before I get up
I lay there
I turn and look at the banner again
1 minute goes by
Then 5
Then 10
Then I feel the affects of the drugs hit me
I'm drowsy
I love the feeling
I feel myself slipping away
As my eyes close
The last thing I see is the banner
And at that moment, I knew
I knew to get over you