Last night, I went for a walk and ended up laying in the grass on my campus. School, feelings and life overwhelmed me. It is the end of summer, my favorite season. It is my senior year. It is my roommate (and best friend’s) last semester. Everything I do in college, I am doing for the very last time.
I am spending each day and night trying to cherish the time where all of my closest friends live in the same building as me. The every day has felt so mundane and now is feeling like something I can't hold tightly enough to.
This chapter of my life is closing page by page and I’m sad as my time is running out. College has been a huge growing and changing experience for me. I am looking forward to the next chapter, but as time is running out, I want to say thank you.
A thank you to my roommate: you are the person that deals with me when I am happy and sad and crabby and tired and hyper and confused and all of these together. I will miss living with you so much. You are beautiful for who you are and the way you love. Thank you for sharing your clothes. Thank you for dancing with me at 10 a.m. and midnight. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for loving me when I didn’t deserve it. Thank you for being you.
A thank you to my next-door neighbors: thank you for being understanding and me and my roommate do the aforementioned midnight dancing.
A thank you to the people that have moved on: each relationship in college has taught me something about life and myself. Even the friendships that ended badly have taught me important lessons I wouldn’t have learned otherwise. I wish you all the best and I thank you for our friendships, which were at some point just what I needed.
A thank you to my closest friends: you are the solid pillars without which, I would not have made it this far. You build me up, love me, make me laugh, and cry with me. I am amazed by your generosity, grace, beauty, and love. I will walk out of college in April with a lot more than just a degree, but these lifelong friendships that mean the world to me. Thank you for letting me vent. Thank you for making me laugh until I cry. Thank you for it all. I love you so much and I thank you for loving so fully and completely.
And thank you for coming to lay on the grass with me last night when thinking about it all being over was just too much.
