There are many things I have learned throughout my life, but loving someone is one of the hardest things. It is not the act of loving someone that is hard, but rather the act of loving the right person. Time after time, I’ve loved someone who would count me out as soon as things got tough. Who knew “love” could be so painful. The love I knew was never ceasing. How can someone love you, and yet it seems as if they don’t care at all. Part of me blamed it on the fact I believed in powerful passionate firework- type love. I have never felt myself as the type to be content or be able to settle with something that is average. Yet, I was that girl that constantly allowed myself to love people who claimed to love me, but would walk away with a blink of eye. I ask myself if I was settling or if I was just kept picking the best one out of the bunch. (It seemed the bunch I was picking from seemed to come from a lemon tree, when I am more of a pomegranate love-type of girl.)
I always asked myself would I ever know Mr. Right? Would I be able to pick him out if he was standing right in front of me, or would I let him walk on by? Truth is, I let the good guy walk just on by. (Shocker, right? I am starting to sound a lot more like a cliché female. Always letting the good guy walk, when I ride off into the sunset on the back of a Harley.) However, don’t let that get you down. For every time you end up with the wrong one, you’re that much closer to the right one.
I never thought that this is what it feels like. I want to just scream to the world and all creatures, that I wish I knew then what I knew now. That I could of saved myself from all those times when I knew that this wasn’t what I wanted, but he was nice. That this guy wasn’t exactly my ideal, but I would settle because I couldn’t have everything I wanted. Guess what?! You can have everything you want. You can have the guy of your dreams! You don’t need to settle. I never have to worry about things that I did in the past. He isn’t interested in anyone else but me. Whenever something goes wrong, he doesn’t hit the hills and run. He actually cares enough to work things out. He cares about my day. He even watches “The Bachlorette” and rubs my feet while I study. If any guy even attempts to sit through this, is a keeper. There is no reason to ever settle for someone. Save yourself a heartbreak, and listen to someone who has enough for us all. It doesn’t matter how much you care, or what you give up/do to try and salvage something that isn’t there to begin with. Save yourself the time and hurt, and don’t try to make the wrong person love you.