I have always been too much.
I'm loud, overemotional, dramatic, outspoken, ridiculously clumsy.
I can't seem to do anything without doing it big.
I laugh loudly, I cry loudly, I speak loudly.
Most of the time, if I'm in a room, I don't go unnoticed.
I've always been too much, but recently I decided that I will no longer apologize for that.
I refuse to make myself smaller, quieter, unnoticeable. I will not apologize for laughing a little too much, or talking just a bit too loud, or for being over dramatic. I will not apologize for feeling deeply and being overly passionate. I refuse to say that I am sorry for showing my emotions. I will not make myself less of who I am in order to please others.
I am aware of my "drama queen" status and my inability to hide my emotions. I've always been aware of that, and I find it funny when people think that they're telling me something new, when they tell me I care too much. I take people's word too seriously, I read into everything, I get too excited, or too sad. I'm so aware of all of it, but I am not sorry for it. I will not be sorry for it. I love that I care too much about people. I love that my laugh can be heard down the hall. I love that I show my emotions all the time because all of that makes me uniquely me.
I've never been quiet, well at least once you get to know me. I don't really have an indoor voice and I talk with my hands. Whispering isn't really in my vocabulary. I have a ridiculous laugh that can be heard from pretty far away. I have opinions and I am not afraid to let the world know about them. I tell people how I feel. I do not hold back. Some people can't handle me, they can't handle my loudness or my emotions or my honesty, and that's OK. I am not sorry for any of it.
I am who I am. Maybe it's too much for some people, but I won't apologize for it anymore. I won't change who I am just because some of my so called "friends" can't handle me. In a world where we constantly try to make things smaller and more condensed, I will stand out. I will laugh loudly, love deeply, and be outspoken. I will not go unnoticed. I will wear my heart on my sleeve. I will not become a whisper. I will continue to be "too much" and I will proudly be a "drama queen." I will not fit in any mold society wants to place me in.
I will no longer apologize for being me. I will no longer be ashamed of my loudness. I will no longer be ashamed of who I am. I'm the girl who is always just too something, and I won't be sorry for it.
Never apologize for who you are, not once.