Poem entry (just thoughts and so much more to come) - a letter to him

Date Initially Written: 8/14/16

Revised slightly: 10/23/16

Dear Alex Julian: a Poem called: "Another Day" (handwritten just for you)

"Another Day~"

Another day without you
Is another day I can't get away
Another day without you
Tells me things I don't know what to say
Another day without you
Every barrier breaking away
Another day without you
Is just another day I can't say hey

When I'm without you
I cherish the moments and thoughts I adore of you
When I'm without you
Please know I don't doubt you
Forever and always
You are my light in which I adore
Forgetting about you
Is just something I can't afford

Either way
I'm here to stay
Whether you like it
I'll be there, anywhere, anyways, any day.

Whether sunny or rainy,
Brilliant or hazy
You are my sweet escape
A getaway
Take me away.

I don't care, it's in the air -
wherever you go.. know that I'll be there.
Even with sadness.. There's always more gladness.
So long as you care
I know I can take you there.

Through loving laughter to crying madness, you're the boy who gives me comfort.

What I'm thinking right now:
He cares. He's there. He means it. I know. Doesn't matter where he is. Doesn't matter how he does it. But what I DO know is that he means his word every time.

Precious lips, baby kisses, ohh the things I'm truly missing.
What more can we call all this? Just bliss?

If underlying,
My eyes are blinding,
Please fear not,
For I'm no longer crying.

Though many years passed, and all I felt was years of pain, years of delay, and years I wanted to get away.

You help me realize that those days are distant. Those days are done. What I once hadn't found. Has changed me all along.

I may have not known you then, but I know you now. And all I can say is: "I'm so proud."
Gratitude isn't a word I can define. Nor is love when I'm all yours and you're mine.

Feelings don't change. They leave internal stains.. Love. And happiness. Some say are hard to find. But for me they're one of a kind.

I learned to be strong without you but with you, I bloom with color. You're not just here to stay, but you take me away. My breath, my heart, my very thoughts.. But that's "A- Okay~"

Feelings - how they linger. They only grow stronger. Get louder. Go deeper.
Though days may pass, my love for you can't.
I hope that you know this. I hope it will make you gasp.

So have no fear. Let's (we'll) make this clear. That we're alive. It's in our eyes. No disguise. This is our time. It's on our mind. Can we survive? Come out alive? I think we'll rise. And wish to fly. Cause you and I. We're by our sides. Fragile wings. Taking flight. It's alright, I can't plight. Never fight. You're just right. Come home tonight. Let me be your light. So spare the glare. I want to be your air.

(Side notes and thoughts I wrote in with the poem, basically extra versus and lines I left out):

Again,

Love may be a word unknown - a force unseen, a fraction of seconds that shouldn't be missed.
But with you, it's clear to me.
Clear to see. No longer a dream, this is reality. Meant to be. Ohh babe.. can't you see? Into me?

This is our dream.
Our time.
Alive.
Right here. Right now.
Our reality.
Defies gravity.
Yet no force could pull me in closer, nothing aside from you.

I push you up
You pull me in closer
Doesn't matter how but I know that this isn't over.

From the first to the last, I know we're going to last.


Sincerely in love with all my might - pulling you in like my metaknight. You're my kryptonite.

You're my moon, you're my sun, and all the stars from up above.
You're the reason I pretend that this day or date will never end.
You're my peach, you're my plum, you're my earth, you're my sun.
You guide me wholeheartedly and I could only do that back to you (10 fold)

But whatever you do or have feelings of doubt - Please, remember this:

No matter where you are or where you'll be at in 10 years from now (give or take), I'll always feel the same. Maybe not 100% the same but that's completely normal! It will still be a passionate and fierce love, but to me, love has a silly way of making feelings eb and flow. But with time, everything will mesh. I can hardly define the lines between love at the start versus love at the end of the day. I'll always feel the same no matter what and that's for sure: that I feel comforted by you, cared for by you, respected by you, and most importantly loved by you! And I can only and ever only give that back to YOU. Nothing less but so much more, if you let me break your walls, as I feel crumble when you're around.

10 years from now, I'll still think you're that amazing person who changed my life for the better. Unconditional love is such a blessing. Really. 'Cause the fact of the matter is this: I will love you all the same because I love you more and more each day, loving you in the entirety of what makes you.. YOU. ❣

So have no fear. Let's (we'll) make this clear. That we're alive. It's in our eyes. No disguise. This is our time. It's on our minds. Can we survive? Come out alive? I think we'll rise. And wish to fly. Cause you and I. We're by our sides. Fragile wings. Taking flight. It's alright, I can't plight. Never fight. You're just right. Come home tonight. Let me be your light. Spare the glare. I want to be your air.

Now, take me there, for I'm your heir.

I may just be your drop of water, giving you life and purpose while also giving you endless care. Drops of water that are sweet nectar elixirs of pure bliss and purity from the root. Yet, I keep you grounded and secure, hoping this will give you the guidance you need while on your long journey ahead. Sojourns are what's best. And you give unto me the element of air, surprise, mystery, yet I can read you loud and clear. Roaring like a breeze that passes me by time after time. You soothe me, dilute me, and help me rise like high tide with you like how hot air rises. But if cold, you just carry on your day at a distance. Broadening horizons, we benefit so much. And I couldn't be happier. We give and we take but never to an extreme. Sharing because we're caring. I may eb and flow in time while with you. But that's just a part of the circle of life. Undulating to and fro 'cause that's just how we role.

Love you so much, darling,
Alex Julian

Warm Loving Regards,
Caroline A. Willson