I really thought that it could turn into something more serious than it was supposed to be. I really thought that we could make this happen, make this work, make this our forever. Clearly I was wrong. You knew all along that I was simply here for your entertainment and nothing more. And just with the words you filled my foolish mind with I was ready to take on the world by your side.
You made everything seem okay like it was meant to be but as your designated fool I was simply a joke. You knew how to play the field and how to get that attention you wanted from me. You could simply say "I'm ugly" and just like that I would type novels of what beauty I could see in you. I sought out your love and adoration but with what I received I would reciprocate that times ten without hesitation. That was my fault. I somehow knew how you were and knew what you were doing but chose to ignore it, telling myself that I wasn't like the rest. I loved our love but it was short lived. You left me like I was nothing more than an empty bag of chips you were discarding on the sidewalk.
In your eyes my job was done and you were ready for someone better than me. Here I was holding on to something that was already dead and gone. I had hoped this was simply a minor bump in the road. It was not. I told myself I would not move on until you did, and while I was still convincing myself that I would be okay, you had already began entertaining others. I was stupidly waiting for you to turn around and say that you screwed up, but I knew that was a wish that would not come true. To be honest I just was not good enough for you, and no matter what you say I know it's true. Actions speak louder than word and you seemed to be screaming from the rooftops.
It's cool, really it is. When I move on and give that right one the love I was giving you and more, you'll see your error in letting what we could have had go. I will be theirs and that person will be mine. He will tell me all the things I wished that I would have heard from you and actually mean it. And with every ounce of our beings we will share this love that could heal all of our emotional wounds and make everything better. Everything.
I forgive you for breaking my heart, and I accept that we will no longer be. There are a plethora of times that I miss you, and get lost in all the beautiful words you used to tell me when I was feeling low. I thank you for the time that we had spent together and the memories we made. I learned my lesson. I wish you the best and hope you find the inner peace that you have been searching so long for in others in yourself instead and find that "One" who can make your world a better place for you to be.
Farewell my friend.
