I previously wrote an article about miscarriages. I somewhat described the experience I had, not once, but twice. I hope it gave all the other mothers who have lost a baby some comfort. After reading my article, a dear friend and relative of mine reached out to me and told me to read a book by author, Patricia Seaver McGivern. It's called "Angel Babies", a book that thrives off McGivern's personal experience after suffering the loss of her son and contains messages from other mothers all around the world who have endured the same thing.
"Angel Babies" by Patricia Seaver McGivern
It talks about the grief, loss, denial and acceptance of losing a baby. She addresses the spiritual effect it can have on us.
When I suffered my miscarriage, I had a dream one night. I dreamt I was laying in a hospital bed. I woke up in the hospital and my room was all white with a beautiful golden sunrise shining through the open window shades. Next to me was a small white bassinet. I stood up and walked over to the bassinet. As I peered down, I saw my baby. He had the most gorgeous colored skin and perfect face. He had thick chocolate brown hair. I picked him as he slept curdled in his small blue blanket and sat in the chair next to my bed. I just peered down at his face. He opened his eyes without making a sound and gave me a look of peace.
I woke up that morning and felt the pain slightly subdue. I was somehow overcome with peace and acceptance.
I have never shared that story with anyone before. I felt as though people would think I was losing my mind in grief. But, McGivern's book, "Angel Babies", showed me I am not alone. Mother's all over the world share the communication they had with their lost babies in the afterlife.
Some have been through dreams. Others through mediation. Multiple people encountered theirs through near-death experiences. All of these experiences happen spiritually. Even if you are not spiritual or religious, it's okay.
I was not and have had multiple trials while trying to understand the world that lives beyond us. Having this dream, or encounter, was hard to understand and grasp. "Angel Babies" helped.
It helped me understand the spirits we are connected with. It not only helped me grieve this death but deaths of loved ones from many years ago. It helped me connect with my grandmother, she passed six years ago. Now, when I am out and see something that reminds me of her I realize that it is her connecting with me. Letting me know that she is here with me, watching me and guiding me.
McGivern so eloquently and truthfully guides us through her own experience in "Angel Babies". She discusses the trails and tribulations she encountered while trying to keep the faith and believe the things she was seeing. The dreams that she endured and the visions she saw. She has published a book that not only shows her kindness and strength but also shows the heart in which we should all have. She opens her soul to us to help us follow our grief.
If you, or someone you know, have had a miscarriage, recommend this book. It will guide them into a peace of mind and a place that is not alone.