I think one of the hardest things to accomplish in life is to choose yourself; to put down all the demons that creep in your head, and haunt you every day is by far one of the greatest challenges one will encounter as they age. We become so overwhelmed by minuscule deeds that they eat you alive, burdening and forcing us to figure out how to handle the stress.
However, we are constantly pitted in situations that provide us with the opportunity to heal our minds, and ultimately help us grow. And it is always the path that we never take. We tend to wear ourselves out when it comes to these things.
But at the end of the day, you are the best thing that you have. You are alive and healthy. I didn't realize that until I hit rock bottom. That the biggest issue I was facing was loving myself and choosing myself.
Who is the one that knows you the best? Yourself.
Who is the one who knows your guilty pleasures? Yourself.
Who is the one who knows EXACTLY what it is to turn a frown upside down? Yourself.
You are your best friend and you are your biggest weakness. It just is up to you to decide what path you want to face.
In the end, I decided to choose myself. I was tired of feeling like the enemy, I was tired of walking past a mirror and hating everything I was seeing, everything I was thinking.
Because when you chose yourself, there seems to this weight that gets lifted off of your shoulders. I will be the first to tell you that once you figure out how to get that weight off of your shoulders, it feels so good to finally breathe.
I get it, we all face rough times and sometimes it's hard to figure out how to keep moving on. But when you chose yourself, everything seems to make sense.
When my first love broke my heart, I blamed myself for every little thing that had happened I always ended up pointing fingers back at myself. I wasn't happy. I lost friends and I lost myself. But when it came down to it, at the end of the day I stood back up and ended up choosing myself.
I know put myself first and worry about my happiness rather than putting someone else's ahead of mine. And since I chose myself, I am happier.
